So it's been a very very long time since I've blogged. Haven't felt the need to. I love blogging here from time to time because even though I don't any followers, I feel like I'm talking on a very public forum and it allows me to let certains things off my chest. Feels good.
This is the first post for 2012. And I'm already lost.
I'm at the best point in my life since I can remember. I love where I am in my studies, how I am at work and I thought I was pretty good at representing my primary identities as a daughter, sister and girlfriend.
But everything seems to be collapsing on me at once. Just one thing can bring it all down.
It makes me wonder, is it me that is dense? So much so, that I couldn't recognise these negative traits/behaviours in myself?
Then one thought leads to another.
I begin to think of catalysts, of things I would like to change, things I could change. The ease and difficulty of each action and how they can also collapse on each other.
I've made commitments, and I intend to see them through to the end. But if I have to question myself, if I really want it or am just too scared to run away... Is it just a rough patch or am I doomed?
Maybe it's too much to sleep on, maybe it's because it's 2am... But I'm gonna turn in and hope tomorrow brings me a new and fresh state of mind. One that I hope could bring me some answers or at least, peace.
